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Thursday, September 10, 2009 – Category: News

I was sitting in the family room in my parent’s house this morning and I was just about to call Isaac and hit me today was September 10, it hit me because I flipped my phone open and it said September 10 haha…. Now I know that date doesn’t seem important to the average person and they are right it really isn’t that important in the large spectrum. But that date signifies the beginning of what I would consider the rest of my life. The exact date it all started was September 10, 2006, that was a date I had been praying about for two years prior and also the start of one the craziest experiences of my LIFE. Plus one more thing happened on that date lol that was just going to change the course of everything and that was the meeting of my husband and I really did meet him that date cause he remembers it more then I do. That was the day that my Performing Arts Discipleship Training School (PADTS) with YWAM (Youth With A Mission) started, three long years ago.

It is something I have rarely talked to people about my PADTS. There were so many weird experiences good and bad, cut the bad cause all experiences teach us to grow in ways we don’t expect if we like it or not. But that’s what I’ve been working out since my PADTS. I personally have not been able to share from my heart what exactly happened those six months, because so many times it was what I call the bad times would keep coming up. What confused me even more after all that is all I wanted was to go back and do it over again cause ever since I’ve stopped PADTS there has been any empty hole, I knew it would happen, the staff told us it would, but it was seeming silly to me that I was taking so long to reenter (YWAM term) into normal life! I really have had so much going for me since I’ve left YWAM getting married and having my first kid who is so cute and then to top it off getting pregnant a second time and finding out I was having my first daughter.

I have since my PADTS contemplated those six months over and over and over again in my head, it leads to many thoughts and emotions. The biggest one that ends up making me frustrated is “WHY DO I MISS IT SO BADLY?” then a few weeks ago it hit me all this time I thought it was the people and performing that I missed (don’t get me wrong I do miss them) but it wasn’t those things what I missed in these few years that big hole was my experience that I had with God in those six months, this might sound crazy for those of you who aren’t Christians but I have never had such an amazing time with God as I did in those six months and it hit me how I would never trade anything for the time I had with my Lord in those months, it was a constant knowing that He was there protecting us, laughing with us, and using us to share His love with others, even amongst all our human drama that we would dig up to make it such an unfocused time on why we really were there.

Anyways I don’t know if this makes sense to anyone but me, I just wanted to remember the “beginning of the rest” of my life after three years and also to say hi and hugs to all of those crazy people who were there on that weird adventure. Plus too finely get a chance to share a little bit of what I came out of after so many people Christians and not Christians supported me with words of encouragement, prayers and finances. I think its only fair to let them know that they didn’t waist a cent or prayer on this little person!

love always -heidi

how i looked for the show with my fellow goths

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Heidi Carter
i'm a Christian who loves the arts and life. i'm learning the ins and outs of being a mom and wife and i think thats going to take my whole life to do that! i love pictures, knitting, crocheting, sewing, cooking, scrap booking/blogging and reading. I also am an avid video gamer but only with Isaac.

5 Responses to “its been 3 years….”

Isaac Says:
September 10th, 2009 at 12:47 pm
wow honey big post, i remember meeting you and your parents as Michelle was showing you the dance floor. I met a lot of students that day and i am amazed that i remember, but i had just come out of my room, the main reason i remember it so well is cause i remember your dads beard, he rocks a good beard. that was the start of an interesting season, love you sweetheart.
Lydia Kilman Says:
September 10th, 2009 at 1:07 pm
Hey, first of all it’s so nice to here from you! Second, if you are indeed at your parents house that would mean you are in Oregon which means you should call me (I lost ur number :-/ ) so we can catch up over coffee or something :-)….. anyways…. I totally know what you mean with missing the God experience part of YWAM. I think God was just starting to get to me toward the end. I personally feel like it was too short of a time but God can use any situation to grow us I suppose which he is. Especially in the last 6 months. Being in a serious relationship grows you up just a tad or you realize how much of a kid you still are. …. anyhoo, it so awesome to here from you and congrats on being pregnant with a baby girl! I miss you guys so much!
Love ya,
Lydia
Heidi Says:
September 10th, 2009 at 1:14 pm
Hey Lydia!!

Yes I’m in Oregon yet again i keep leaving and coming back. I should be here at the very least till January. We totally should get together and catch up with everything. the only problem is I can’t drive any more cause I’m to prego to fit behind the wheel. Yeah relationships definitly change things don’t they!? honestly email is the best way to get ahold of me. heidi.isaac@gmail.com let me know times that work.

-heidi
Isaac my dad does pull off the bearded look for sure love ya baby!
Scott Says:
September 10th, 2009 at 10:06 pm
i was actually realizing this same date sometime in the middle of the day and know exactly what you mean. as of this day three years ago my life would never be the same. and i guess it continued a while after that, seeing im still with YWAM and our next DTS is starting in just a few weeks, scratch that next weekend, wow thats crazy. hey and let me know what you guys are up to this winter, ill have some free time and id love to take a trip up and visit my YWAM mom and dad. crazy times, cra-zy times.
-Scott
Heidi Carter Says:
September 12th, 2009 at 9:21 pm
hey scott! you should totally go and see isaac perform in november or october he would love that. i’m in oregon at the moment but i know he would really enjoy a visitor

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